I don’t care what people see anymore. I’m not hiding my feelings for anyone’s sake. If my tumblr stalker is out there please, feel free to use whatever against me. I don’t even care anymore. I gave up on way too many aspects of my life to even care about you slandering me and using my words against me. Fuck you whomever the fuck you are.
I’ve been going through way too much lately. A lot of things come up in my mind often, especially when it comes down to child support. I’ve been dying to take you to court and you know exactly who you are. I just couldn’t understand how you can just abandon your child as if she never existed? You never call me to ask if she’s okay. You never call to see if she’s eating. You never call for anything!! Do you know what our daughter asked me the other day?? She asked me why isn’t she dark like her dad? I simply responded, ‘because everyone is different’. She then told me she wanted to dark, like you… I told her she is beautiful no matter what she looks like. She then told me, “yeah, I don’t want to look like him because he never comes and visits you and me”. Reynaldo, you have no idea how much that broke my heart. Even she notices your absence. Although she doesn’t miss you and I’m glad for that but that absence is still there. And you’ll never understand. I can’t even understand still sometimes. I can’t fathom the thought of ever being without my child and the thought of it kills me.
She’s growing up. And I want to to know that she will do fine just without you. We don’t need your help, support or anything like that. You’ll never be that much of an important factor in our lives. I hope you know that I have given up. I will never contact you directly again, for any reason. I’m done. I’m done trying to convince myself that you’ll change, even if it’s only for her. Done, trying to love you and trying to demonstrate it. It is over. You are a closed chapter in my life. Sure, you’ll see our daughter once in awhile, but you’ll never be a man. Ever. The proof is already there. I don’t even have to say much more..